Okay, so today wasn't such a good day. For the last 3 months I've been applying for teaching and administration positions at various institutions of higher learning in the State of Louisiana. My main reason for trying to remain in the state is because of my kids; one is a junior in high school and has asked to be allowed the opportunity to finish out his senior year at his home school, and my youngest son will be entering high school next year. But what happens after you've applied to every institution imaginable and the answer is always no.
Today I received yet another rejection letter regarding a position I had applied for. Funny thing was, I emailed my application packet and not less than 5 minutes later I received an email stating that the position had been filled. WTH?! Yes, those were my first thoughts before a flood of tears begin to fall from my eyes. (I really wanted that job! and I'm not good with rejection when it comes to employment.) I've been a successful social worker since 1996, licensed in the State of Louisiana, and I must admit that I'm damn good at what I do, but since switching to higher education I'm finding myself having to start all over again which sucks.
The hurt comes because I've taught in institutions of higher learning and I've made a difference. I love teaching and I enjoy working on a college campus. So today I was a little discouraged. Okay, maybe a lot! As I write this blog post I'm finding myself not wanting any sympathetic pats on the back or the feel good comments like "this job just wasn't the right one for you." Today I want to sulk and be left alone as I take a moment and have a silent meltdown, one that's filled with a lot of unhealthy foods, reality tv, Kleenex, and a few choice cuss words, before getting back up in the morning and coming up with a new plan A.
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